~ An Ode to my husband ~
Lies weight me down like boulders upon my chest
Making it hard to breathe as your words I try to digest.
The bile rises forth with each secret kept from me
Tears rage forth from my once trusting eyes making it hard to see.
You told me you loved me forever you vowed
How was I to know that betrayal was allowed?
You were merciless with your bitter words and hollow heart
I wish your affair never did start!
For who has paid for your 5 months of playing house ?
Why it’s been me and the children you sorry ass Louse!
You may no longer be with her but I really don’t care
The damage has been done and it is beyond repair!
You destroyed our family and tore apart our home
And discarded us like a toothless comb!
Now anger rages like a wild animal within
All because of your selfish monthly nights of sin.
For months after I changed the locks on you I cried.
The pain was so immense that I thought I would die.
Then in my spiritual hemorrhaging I found a little fight
Which helped me find my way out of the darkness & into the light.
You thought you had beaten me and won.
In the end little man I will have my two sons!
You can have all the material things I really don’t give a shit!
Because for once I won’t have to put up with your childish fits!
You can no longer control me or abuse me as you wish
I’ll fight you with everything I have including my Fist!
You thought it would be easy and I would just lay down
Well, you're sadly mistaken me for a circus clown.
For in the end I will still stand tall
For I will have my children and that is having it all!
~ By: Topaaz Moons ~
1/17/08
